Valdor's ex-wife Sarah

I'm hoping my publisher's won't consider this a breach of my contract to write this because its technically about Valdor and Sarah.  I've been told if I want to write a book about Bruce I have to stop telling stories about him because people will read them here and not in a book.

I had a very interesting meeting with Sarah.  I'm going to write it like I am writing it in a book.  It's easier that way (at least to me).  Keep in mind I don't have proof readers correcting my grammer, spelling, etc.

Sarah came by my house to read the Sister's email to me.  Sarah is American but fluent in German.  I was a little apprehensive about inviting her over and especially inviting her into my business, but something inside my heart told me too.  As she sat at the bar, I poured us a glass of wine, while she read the email.  (which you can read under Their back)  When she finished, she started to tear up, "I'm so sorry, I was going to testify against you.  I'm sorry.  Everything I was going to say would have been a lie.  Can you forgive me?"

I thought how much guts that took to admit and how Bruce would have certainly  said "yes".  I walked over and hugged her "Yes.  I just don't understand why you never liked me.  I've never done anything to you.  When I met you I hoped we could be friends since Val and Bruce were such good friends."

She reached for the wine bottle and said. "it was never you.  It was me.  If you've got a few minutes I'll give you the short story on my relationship with Valdor."

I looked at the clock knowing Val would be coming over in a couple hours.. "Yes, I've got time."

"You know I worked as a recruiter for Boeing.  I met Valdor when I was in Germany talking with several aeronautic engineers that specialize in mechanics.  Valdor was the best.  When we met 10 years ago I did not look like this.  I was much smaller, probably 110 pounds smaller.  Valdor and I hit it off and slept together the first time we went out.  Even though I was thinner, I was still pale with red hair and freckles.  I mean, look at him?  He's so handsome.  I never dreamed he would love me.  I finally offered him the job and of course it was based on a transfer for Bruskiasban too.  Funny, how we took Bruskiasban just to get Valdor and Bruskiasban quickly rose to a very powerful position and Valdor was happy to stay in the engineering dept.

Anyway, a year after they both moved here, Valdor and I flew to Vegas one weekend.  He proposed while we were there and wanted to get married.  I thought it was the alcohol.  Valdor used to drink a lot, but when he produced a prenup I knew he had given it a lot of thought.  I said yes, because I thought he was the "best" and I couldn't do any better.  Yes, on paper he is the best.  He's handsome, kind, wealthy, funny and just a joy to be around.  But on paper and in the heart are two different things.  I never felt good enough or pretty enough to be with him.  I was always jealous and flying into a rage when he would talk to other women.  Pretty women.  Depression started setting in and I started eating and then things just got worse.  Valdor and I have talked about a divorce several times over the last 5 years, but he would always say "We can work it out."

The first day we met you, I watched you and Valdor sitting there laughing at each other's witty comebacks.  I could see the light in his eyes.  It was the Valdor I had not seen in years.  He lights up when he's around you.  It wasn't lost on Bruskiasban either.  Bruskiasban asked Valdor if he loved you once.  Valdor said yes.  But we all knew nothing would come of it Valdor would NEVER betray Bruskiasban.

When Bruskiasban died.  Valdro died with him.  I watched him for days, like a little boy who had lost his best friend.  He cried and cried and I couldn't comfort him."

I finally interrupted her.  "Yes you could have.  You could have put your arms around him and just let him cry. He needed you."  I sounded angry and I was.  How dare her let him hurt like that.

She sipped her wine and started crying.  "I know.  I know, but I couldn't.  I didn't know how.  I was sad too.  Bruskiasban was a wonderful man.  I don't think he liked me but he was always nice to me."

"Bruce liked you Sarah.  When I complained you didn't like me, Bruce said you have something in your heart and soul that is eating at you.  He said he prays for you, but you have to be the one to ask God to heal you.  He said someday your heart will heal and you will feel joy again.  He said until then you will be at war with the world."

Sarah laughed. "That's Bruskiasban. Did Valdor tell you about the funeral?" She asked.

"No, not really."

"There were about 200 people there.  The cathedral was quiet except for Valdor.  Oh Bonnie, it was embarrassing.  You could hear Valdor's wailing all over the church.  He wasn't just crying or sobbing, it was like nothing I had ever heard."

I stood there leaning on the counter wanting to walk over and smack her.  How could she let her husband cry like that and not try to be there for him. I know the pain was unbearable.

"I can't imagine." I said.

"The bad part was when we went to Vault.  Valdor got down on his knees and grabbed both sisters hands and begged them not to put Bruskiasban in the Vault.  He said "you've had your funeral, please let me take my brother home to America."  Of course, they said no.  Valdor didn't leave the vault for two days.  The police finally made him leave.

I know this sounds mean, but I knew then that he was a broken man and he would agree to a divorce.  Afterall, he was free to pursue you and he will with everything in him. I don't wish anything bad for Valdor and the two of you have my blessings.  I just want to be in a relationship with someone I feel comfortable with.  Someone who I don't feel is so far above me that it makes me feel bad.  I just want to be loved.  I know he did, but he wasn't the man for me." she said.

"So now what are you going to do?" I asked.

"Hell, I feel like I've won the lottery.  I quit my job and now I'm going to move to New York City.  I've always wanted to live there.  I hope you and Valdor can find peace in each other and heal.  Bruskiasban was such a good man.  I do miss him, but I hate that he took a huge piece of Valdor with him.  Valdor will never be whole again.  Never."