I don't understand why people constantly want to make your business their business.  I know we all post things on Facebook that is personal and when we do we are allowing all of our so called "friends" into ourlives.  That is our choice.  But if you read something personal that doesn't give you the right to use that information to hurt that person in any way.  On several occassions someone has messaged me on Facebook asking me about a mutual friend or family member's personal business.  I promptly direct them back to the person they are asking about.  To continue would be just fueling gossip.  So my advice is to mind your own business unless your invited in to it.

We are taking a break from the hearing.  I can't help but think how this would be so upsetting to Bruce.  Sometimes, I just want to stand up and yell "Fine.  You can have it all."  I wonder, if Bruce would think I was being greedy battling his sisters.  It's really got me upset.  He wanted me to have it and I feel like its because he knows I would do something good with it to honor  him.  But, part of me just doesn't want to continue.  I'm afraid it makes me look like them.  I guess I just have to keep praying and moving forward.  I just need to keep telling myself this was what he wanted.  I miss him so much.  I wish I had known he was sick.  I wish I  had made him go to the doctor that weekend.  I just miss him.  Money won't bring him back, if it did they could have it all.

Why are people so greedy? Everyone should strive to be happy.  Yes, money can help in that situation.  It's hard to be happy when you're worrying about paying your house payment or putting food on the table.  But if you have wealth, why do you need more?  I don't understand this attitude.  It's like they are just being mean. I've been in court all morning fighting two women I don't know over my boyfriend's estate.  I haven't seen one ounce of emotion from them, not one tear.  I can barely sit here and listen to "his final wishes".  I hate the word "final".  I don't want this to be the end.  I don't really want to be here.  But if I prevail I will do something to help people with the money.  I know that is what Bruce would have wanted and I feel like he was my reward.  God blessed me the day he brought Bruce into my life.  I can't be bitter that he took him from me. Actually, I don't blame God for wanting Bruce in Heaven with him.  Bruce was too good for this place and all the sin that dwells here.  

I'm as guilty as the next when it comes to the bad break-up.  But I've decided in my 50 years, that honesty is the best policy.  We should sit down and tell the person the truth.  "I'm not in love with you.  I used to love you, but things have changed.  Your still important to me and I want to be a part of your life."  The person hearing this will be heartbroken, but appreciative of the honesty.  I know in my case when I love someone I would still value the friendship.  If you're feelings are starting to sway towards someone else than tell them that.  "I'm sorry, but I'm attracted to (whoever) .  I know that comes as a shock to you, and I don't know where its going with (whoever) but I have to follow my heart."  I can't stand when people say its me not you or even worse to belittle your relationship like it never happened.  Ending a relationship is painful, I don't understand why people have to make it worse.  I guess because they are cowards and its easier on them to ignore you or to just lie.

I've been thinking about how words effect our lives.  Is it really the words or the feeilings and intentions behind the words that cause the problem?  Whatever happen to honesty?  Why do we use people?  We have the ability to tell people what we truly think, yet most of choose not too.  Some people just tell you what they think you want to hear because they want something from you.  It's for their own selfish reasons that they play with our emotions.  When everything blows up who's at fault?  The person that went into the relationship blindly and ignored all the signs or the person that played with our emotions?  When they play with our emotions they make fools of us.  Clearly, our feelings mean nothing to these people.  When they lie to you to save a relationship, then basically, the person in that "saved" relationship has nothing but a liar.  Same as a cheater.  When a married person cheats and ends up marrying the person they cheated with that person has nothing more than a cheater.  They don't have  a spouse they can be proud of or someone they can trust.  They married a cheater.  Both are cheaters.  When you are single and you cheat with someone married you are just as guilty.  In my opinion these people deserve each other.

Today is Mother's Day.  I want to wish my Mother, Charlotte Rinker a very happy Mother's Day.  I couldn't have survived the last couple of years with out her support, love and words of encouragement. 

I launched my blog today.  Just personal thoughts.  There is blog out there with my name and photo, but its not mine.  I'm not sure why someone did it, but its out there.  It hasn't been updated in 3 years.  This is officially mine, You can read new posts on this blog via the RSS feed.

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